More than just my "boyfriend"

We're about three months into this whole dating thing. Although his title is boyfriend, he is so much more. Best friend, partner in crime, snug bud, advice giver, bravest passenger and bae. These are just a few things that make him more than just my "boyfriend." 


1. I send him those goofy snapchat selfies.
The food in the mouth, no makeup, unstraightened hair kind of selfies
 
2. We end fights with laughing and hugs
By the end of a silly argument you can't even take each other seriously anymore (this is more me)

3. He's impressed by my every day play-by-plays
Me: "This morning I woke up, had 4 cups of coffee and 3 donuts before 9 am" 

 D: "Wow, babe. You are a champ. A true inspiration to many."

4. "Netflix and chill" literally means Netflix and chill
Usually including FNL, buffalo pretzels and dr pepper

5. Speaking of food, I have no shame in eating massive amounts around him
Forget salad, carbs for the win.

6. We can be absolute children around each other
Two words: Botanical Gardens

7. We sing in the car together. And it sounds awful
I never in my life thought I would know the words to Chicken Fried

8. We tell each other how it really is
If you dont know Daniel White, he is the most blunt human on the planet and for that I am thankful


9. My family is your family
Thank you for adopting them (all the hundred of them) from day one


10. We genuinely have fun together.
I never find myself having to force a smile or fake a laugh when I am with him

12. Every day is an adventure.
 Bowling, skating, christmas lights, the nut house, the fun never ends

13. He's the first person I want to call.
Whether something good or bad happens

14. I miss him as soon as he leaves 
Literally 3-5 seconds after his departure

15. I am okay with looking like a total slob around him.
Hat, no makeup, same leggings for the 3rd day in a row

16. Silence isn't awkward.
Sometimes just being in the same room is all I need

17. We know all the gross things about each other.
D understands that sometimes shaving my legs is just way more than I can handle that day 

18. We're too competitive with each other.
Remember that time I beat you in bowling?
 
19. We like to embarrass each other.
We wont go there right now ;)

20. I trust him to buy gifts
He knows the true importance of an anthropologie candle

21. He brings out the best in me
Every single day

22. I am willing to listen to him talk about sports, even though I do not interested.
There's nothing quite like seeing his eyes light up the way they do when he talks about the ducks

23. He is always down to take another picture
Insta game so strong

24. Secrets? What are those?

25. We may or may not send each other pictures of outfits.

26. He gives the best advice.
Whether its what I want to hear or not, he knows whats best

27. We're accepting of each other.
Good days and bad

28. We tease each other on the reg
Which is weird because we both pretty sensitive oops

29. We remind each other how much we care.
Constant long sappy text that keep us smiling ear to ear

30. We can look past all the not so fun times.
The good times 100% out weigh the not so good ones

31. Your friends are my friends
Shoutout to Chase and Ashlyn for adopting me into the squad

Everyday is a new adventure, here's to a list that continues to grow!

Say you wont let go <3

J

The best surprise

To the one I never saw you coming,

"You are the best surprise life has ever given me"

I never knew that in such a short time you would take over such a big piece of my heart but somehow, someway, I am ok with that.

You have taught me so much in such little time. You have taught me that happiness is not a destination, but a journey. You have taught me that the big things are sometimes little things and the little things are sometimes big things. You have taught me that it is ok not to be ok. You have taught me that it is ok to be a kid sometimes, because I still am one.

There isn’t a word that comes close to explaining how much you mean to me. When you are sad, I am sad. When you are happy, I am happy. We are linked. Not in a creepy way, I promise. No matter how many times I tell you that I hate you, or make fun of the little things you do, I wouldn't change a thing about you. And, I want you to know something. This is the most important thing that I will ever tell you. There is no one like you and there never will be. You are one of a kind.

Lastly, I want to say thank you. Thank you for coming into my life when you did and occupying such a large part of it. You have no idea the impact you have already made on me. Thank you for the countless late night talks, laughs and putting up with me being loud. Thank you for always welcoming me with open arms, no questions asked. Thank you for always having my back. Thank you for loving me (liking me, whatevs) for all that I am and all of my strange quirks. Thank you, from the bottom of my southern heart, for being you.

Xoxo,
The one who never wants to see you leave.

Life is hard but God is good

Let's be real. Life is busy and life is hard. Just going to tell it like it is, it’s hard. Sometimes your life is not fair. Occasionally you will go through something, or someone will say something mean to you, or you will look around and feel like everyone is happier than you are, or you will want to just stay in your bed all day and not be with other people, or you just won’t feel confident in yourself, or you’ll convince yourself that everyone has their lives figured out and you don’t.

If you’re in college, you’re juggling a lot. You have classes, which that in itself is enough to cause a couple stress tears here and there. You have a job. You’re in a sorority or a fraternity. You have a leadership position in said sorority or fraternity. You’re involved in your church. You have a million other extracurricular activities. You have friends who want your attention. You have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Or you’re worried about not having a boyfriend or girlfriend. You have to find time to call mom occasionally so she knows you’re still alive. Occasionally you forget to eat. And Sleep becomes a rare luxury.

Then comes that awkward moment when someone asks you how you are, and even though your initial response is “I’m good, how are you,” you think about it more…and you realize you’re not doing good at all. And you feel like the only one who isn’t doing good. And you don’t know who to talk to because everyone else has their own struggles, everyone else is busy, no one will understand, people will think you’re just weak or not cut out for this college thing because you feel like you’re drowning and you can’t keep up.
 
Throughout this school year, I have learned the importance of taking care of myself. I’ve learned the importance of saying, “no” occasionally. If you know me at all, you know saying no is a hard task for me. I like to make everyone feel better. I like to help other people and take a load off of their shoulders, but I never ask for help in return. And this is not because I’m just so selfless or whatever. Actually, I’m just stubborn. I refuse to say I can’t do something. I don’t accept failure well. And sometimes, I have made myself so busy that I have no time to take care of my own mental health. I feel like I can’t talk to people because they’re all so busy with their own lives. So, busy and alone. What a combination, right?

If you’re reading this and you’re like “YES, YOU GET ME!”…Hi, let’s be friends. But really.

Breathe. Like take a deep breath and let these words sink in.

It’s okay to feel the way that you’re feeling. It’s okay to feel like you don’t have it all together. It’s okay to feel like you’re fighting a losing battle sometimes.

Wanna know why?

Because Jesus has already won.

There is no battle that you are facing that He does not already know about. There is no thought running through your head that He does not have comfort for. There is no moment when you are alone because He is always there. He cares, and He is proud of you. He sees what all you are doing. He knows how hard you work.

And He calls us to be still.

I know what you're thinking. How in the world do I have time to just be still? We literally just discussed that I have a million things going on. If you think I have time to “be still,” you’re crazy.
So yeah maybe I’m crazy on some things, but this one, nope. You need to take time for you and not feel bad about it. You need time in prayer. You need to seek refuge in the Lord. You need to rest. Rest in the fact that He is there, He loves you.

Look around you for a moment. You have people who care about you. Do not convince yourself (like I did) that people are so wrapped up in their own lives that they don’t care about yours. People are important. People are so much more important than your to-do list. So invest in people. Let people invest in you. Tell them when you’re just not okay. Don’t be afraid to ask for prayer. Let them tell you when they’re not okay. And pray for them in return and help them feel understood.
The fact of the matter is…we’re all struggling. We’ve all got something going on.

But we’re not alone in it. And it’s okay to not feel okay sometimes. But when you’re not feeling okay, remember that you’re loved. And that you’re not alone. Remember that no matter how far you run, you can’t outrun Him. Remember that He’s there. Remember that He listens and He cares. Remember that other people care, too.

College is hard. Life in general is hard. Don’t let people convince you it’s a walk in the park because it’s not. But it’s okay. You’ll be okay. Life is still good and God is still great.

You got this,
Jordyn