For some reason i’ve spent the better part of today thinking about you and praying for you. I don’t know if I know you yet but that doesn’t stop me from praying for you. Maybe I have met you, maybe I will meet you later in life.
You should probably know, I absolutely love love. The Lord has given me a HUGE heart for His people. The desire to serve, encourage, and love burns deep inside of my heart. I am quite the softy even though I don't often show it. But this stirring love for you is different than the movies and the fairy tales. You see, as much as I enjoy looking at pictures of cute couples on Pinterest, dreaming about my wedding, or imagining what my little nuggets are gonna look like one day… This is more. This is more than random “I love yous” and cuddling on the couch. This is ministry. This is the Lord’s work. By grace, He has given you to me. What a precious gift you are. Right now, this very moment, God is preparing your heart to lead and love me! I have tears in my eyes just thinking about that! God loves me so much that He’s given me someone as wonderful as you, a faithful partner. Whether I’ll meet you at age 20 or 55, I’m not sure. But I can’t wait to serve you and serve the Lord along side of you. This is more than a hopeless romantic daydream and the novels of love. This is a partnership to serve God and further the Kingdom of God together all the while delighting in one another! How cool is that?! As much as I love the mushy gushy, corny, frilly, romantic things (Trust me when I say I love them) — my heart is focused on the bigger picture and I pray it will stay that way as I grow older. So until God graciously sends you into my arms, I will continue to pray for you.
I pray that you are falling passionately in love with Jesus every single day. I pray that a fire burns in your heart to serve, learn, lead, and be a man after His own heart. I pray that you are surrounded by a solid community of guys, accountability partners, and brothers in Christ. I pray that you’re diving into the Word and that you fight against being a lukewarm Christian. I pray that you’re growing and learning and seeking. I pray that you are preparing your heart right now to one day, in our conventional marriage relationship, to lead me and our children in truth and light.
I pray that you resist temptation. We live in a sinful and fallen world. I can’t help but think about the poison our generation of young men are becoming numb to because it’s “normal.” I pray that you guard not only your heart, but also your eyes, and your mind. I pray that you resist. I pray that you value the women around you– at work, at the gym, on the street. I pray that you take every thought captive. I pray that you war against lust. I pray that you change the channel, click off the website, and use discernment when looking at accounts on social media. It’s damaging my love, it’s addicting and has ruined marriages of solid believers. I pray that you are grounded in truth and lead by example for other young men. Therefore, I pray that you resist temptation.
I pray that you extend grace. First, I would like to say that I’m sorry, my love. I’m sorry for not guarding my heart better in the past. What an incredible God we serve; one who redeems, restores, brings dead things to life, and clears our transgressions out of sight (Psalm 32:5). Praise Him for grace upon grace. But you are human, beloved. You will need to exercise patience and grace towards me as I work through my flesh. I am not perfect. I have made mistakes and I will fall again. I pray you extend grace to me as I move past old wounds, as I process through hurt and fears. I pray you extend grace and forgive me for ways that I have given my heart away to other people. I pray that you extend grace as I struggle against insecurity and comparison. I pray that you live with a mentality that the past is the past and that all things have been made new in our Lord (2 Corinthians 5:17 & Isaiah 43:18-19). I pray you believe in me. I pray that you think my scars are beautiful. I pray you are patient and compassionate.
I pray that you think of me. Whether I know you right now or not, I pray that you take into consideration the fact that right now, spending her friday night blogging in a coffee shop in Clinton, Mississippi, there is a young woman who loves you. Oh boy, does she love you. She thinks about you, yearns for you, loves you, and prays for you. God is also preparing her heart. He is speaking to her, teaching her, guiding her, disciplining her, all so that one day through joy and tears, pain, loss, fun times, excitement and new beginnings— she will be a strong and loving helper, servant, sister in Christ, and an adoring wife.
I look forward to the long work days. The ones when you come home to a wife that wants to fill your cup after you’ve poured out on others all day. I look forward to being a wife that seeks the Lord and seeks her worth in Him rather than you so that I can better love you. I look forward to wrapping around you with my little arms and laughing with you. I look forward to working through miscommunication and promising to never go to bed mad. I look forward to fighting with you, then turning around and loving you even more afterwards. But most importantly, I look forward to serving the Lord alongside of you for the rest of our lives. Just two broken sinners who love the Lord and love each other, doing life. Now that is beautiful.
Praying for you always, loving you from afar (or maybe close by),
Your future wife
